Good morning sweetie. Please be patient with me. I am unhappy with a great deal of things and I am blessed to have you as a powerfully positive influence in my life. Please keep being positive. I can't thank you enough for being with me and holding my hand. Even an expression to want to be with me is a tremendous salve for my burdened soul. I have a lot of patience, and understanding and I like you enormously.

My sexual being and attendant dysfunction is a big and terrible, evil demon on my back, feeding ravenously on my spirit and I have heard you tell me that you lose interest. That, in turn, boosts thoughts about my inadequacies and my revolving thoughts about you and my speculation on your thoughts that you are disinterested with me and my attendant baggage, and want to pursue a long-term relationship elsewhere. I know that those thoughts have no merit but I am unable to shake them off without some hope from you.

I was goign to email this to you but I stopped and thought about it for a long time and decided not to. I am scared.