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I am beginning to chafe under the stupid, narrow-minded, misbegotten, spinney, bedraggled, and ill tempered snot of a man that is our Adjutant. To bad he's he CO's best friend and best man and the army didn't do its paperwork right when he got out more than 10 years ago. Someone the CO found a way to bring him back as the Adjtant. Anyway, he's managed to have one subbie quit and another ask for a transfer and I think as the senior subbie baton has been passed to me, I'm really beginning to get smarmy with a man that know no lines between mess business and army business and runs everything or at least dabbles his little nosey fingers into everything. He from the army of the 60s and one day his nasty little mouth is going to get him into a good deal of trouble and no amount of loyalty on the part of his cultivated little lot of semi-stooges and quasi-friends is going to help him. He has, well, how shall I put it? an extremely backward, archaic and poor idea of women in the army and I shudder to repeat what he think they are only capable of. I am aghast that we have this man wearing the uniform of a Seaforth, never mind a CF one. My distate and displeasure at having to shut up and take it since he is not only the adjutant, but double hatted as the Coy 2I/C. The was someone's brilliant idea to get him quickly aquainted with the modern army, but he is always spouting about how the army used to be and how he will get us back to the way we were, even if he has to fire some people along the way. I grieve.

Anyway, can you tell that there's a little bitterness there? I'm not usually one to hold a grudge and I can usually be counted to be one of the more mild and team-oriented people I know, but he is stretching my patience very thin. And over the most stupidily trivial things. Anyway, I must stop or else I shan't be able to sleep...

I was listening to a senate committee on CPAC and while I did hear some generally supportive statements about the army (anytime anyone is talking about army and more support in the same sentence has my attention) but they seem to have some strange ideas about what to do with the reserves and from all these overly educated academics. They do talk about wanting to increase the size of the reserves but also have strange notions about turning it into some sort of civil defence mob - that'll hardly help recruiting. It may be fine for everyone else, but I'd have a hard time selling the combat arms regiments on it. It's be disastrous for recruiting and what retention. They seem to think in this cocoon-like state and imagine that what reserves we have now will be only too happy to trade in their weapons for some tracker dogs and search and resue equipment. Where are the bleeding hearted liberals that have this notion of war as distant and will never come if we only continue to give it the face of a flower.

I smell a rat in trying to equate military ranks to civilian ones. The public service commission has for years tried to tie the military ranks to their own civil servant structure so that whenever the military got a raise, they could do along and get their unions to demand a similar one based on the notion that military embers are similar in position and education. When's the last time you saw a civil servant digging a trench or down on the rifle range doing the PWT? Never and I am not willing to that that one go without a fight - you know, I think I'm getting feisty in the small hours of the morning. I have to work tomorrow, so this won't be much longer that it is. I've now been toying with the fantasy that I'll get out of the military and write more regularly. non-fiction writing. But then, who would listen to a has been , or worse yet than the infamous Scott Taylor, a never was? The establishmeent really only wants to accept notions from within and is supremely mistrusting of outside interference. Lip service is paid only, and a good deal of public money spent, but as always, the decision makers cling to the luxury of being able to say "oops" if they get it wrong.

Need a hug. Where are the women when you need them?